Chapter -6 MESSY MESS

 

Chapter -6

MESSY MESS

Oh! shit I have missed my snacks but my roommate (Anshita) interrupts me –‘Hey it’s only 5:45 pm you have 15minutes more to have your snacks’.

This sentence drives craziness into my whole body. In a hurry I wear my sleeper running towards the mess but I realized I should hug  Anshita after all if she won’t tell me the correct time I will really miss my snacks. I come back hug tightly and immediately I turned back went off towards the mess.  

I saw a message in my mobile. It was Ashwin’s my heart start beating, it was like I want to do something, but I am scare of doing that. Aliena why are so nervous, he just messaged you on your status. What you were expecting a rose with proposal come-on how could you be so dumb. You are simply thinking him a lot and as a result this corrupting your brain. Ashwin is a well-mannered boy though he is short-tempered but always have patience while dealing with people. He always controls himself and never reflects anything which is going on inside him. If he is frustrated, he will never show this in front of anyone. He has his past too which reflects in his eyes, I have always wondered what I am seeing his eyes are true or what he is trying to 

show is true. The fact is as simple as it seems ‘eyes don’t cheat’.

His eyes always try to speak something, but he always avoids eye contact with and put a smile as if he is too shy but in reality he is bold and speaks freely whatever he wants to.  While conversation with me in face to face he always tries to escape from eye contact but never want me to notice that, this consciousness tells his story.  He always, gets nervous as if I am taking his job interview.

He has so many qualities how could someone stop her/him to get attached with him. Aliena I think you doesn’t like him its just effectuation. If you like him then you will be able to accept this. So here is the conclusion ‘you are thinking him because of effectuation’. After getting conclusion from my brain I am not so free with this it was something which become more complex, but I am happy that it’s just an effectuation neither love nor like. While this entire struggle that was going into brain finally I have defeated the confusion and even finished my snacks too.

I went to common room where we always sit for surfing internet. I am feeling bore so I call Arpan. Arpan is my best friend. It has been 3 years we are friends and now he is my best friend to whom I always share my ups and downs. We laugh together and cry together.  Arpan is a nice guy though he is 8 years older than me, but we have a great chemistry.  When I told about Ashwin to Arpan he was laughing because he knows that I won’t feel for him. He will also become like a passing cloud, but we don’t know that I will confuse for Ashwin. I didn’t tell about this to Arpan yet because when he realizes that I have a soft corner for Ashwin he starts hating him. He has a misunderstanding that if we will be together or if I will be with him he will lose me and my friendship which is too precious for him. He loves me but not as lover but as a best friend who cares his best friend a lot.

Anshita , Sandhaya and Harshita  feels that Arpan is in love with me but I never have such feeling for him. I always saw him like a best friend so for changing his though regarding me. I add one more relation with him that is of dad. He always cares me like his daughter so finally I did.